For me extended periods of stress triggers depression. I have some extra stress going on and it is, of course, causing me to fear the onset of a depressive episode. Fear is such a nasty thing. It is the insecurity of losing something we have or not getting something we don’t have. In this case, I am afraid of losing my stable mood. Sure I have anxiety, but my mood is stable.
The best way I know how to handle fear is to stay in the present moment; to not think about it; to think about, or more like observe, literally only what is in front of me. The couch, the sky, the family, the food, the dog. Observe, not judge. Watch, not criticize. Watch the thoughts and feelings go through me. Don’t hold on to any of them. Let them float by like clouds in the sky on a breezy day. Accept, not fight.
Breathe, not die.