I am tired. Anxiety does that to me. I was awake at 4am this morning thinking about a meeting I have to go to later today that I am anxious about. It has me anxious because one, I have to leave the house; two, I don’t know where this place is, I’ve never been there before, and three, I have to meet new people.
I told myself I was being stupid, then I caught myself. Since I now have a no tolerance policy for negative self-judgements, I immediately stopped the “I’m being stupid” thought and replaced it with, “I am not stupid. The anxiety is simply a part of my disorder and I can’t help it.” It is just a fact of my life. No use making big drama over it. Geez! Get over myself, Jessica! Acknowledge it and move on.
Move on to what though? The anxiety is so damn uncomfortable and nagging!
Distractions. That’s what I usually do is distract myself. So, I’ve spent all morning on creative projects such as photography and baking. I am trying not to stress eat all three dozen chocolate chip cookies I made. It is really hard. 😉
How’s your day going?